HAPPY NEW YEAR

last day of 2010...i should have joined some party with my friends excitedly...but here i am, at my home...sitting placidly...after packed my baggages...

i wonder why people are so obssessed with "new year"???is it so important that they are willing to spend hundreds, thousands on fireworks???what for??to show that they have the abilities to burn money???

well, i am not criticising anyone. just my feeling anyway.

i am going to leave home tomorow, as classes are going to start soon. i really enjoyed lying on my warm bed at homie, wish that i can escape from classes. but, not everything is possible, is it??

hmm...its nearly 12 at night now, on this joyful and the end (day) of 2010, wish that all of us have a great year ahead...meet some new friends, its better if they are some great and kind guys...haha,just kidding. i also hope that all the bad lucks this year will gone by and may good lucks join me soon...^^...lastly, to all my family members and friends: wish that you all can have all the health and wealth in this upcoming year...cheers!!!RABBIT YEAR IS AHEAD OF US!@@

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

i am a girl wishing to escape from college

i am having a good time in my homie!!!

wish that i can escape and never return to that place, kent, is really a scary place. for me, frankly speaking.

there is not much time left for the year to start, need to work it out though i hate it..

where could i possibly escape to, when i know that i will have to pay a whole lot sum of money for those so called "people"...

so, to conclude, not everyone can choose what they want in life, however, rich people are free to choose whatever they want. everything is about money nowadays, you want freedom, be a milionaire. you want pretty girls around you, be a bachelor loaded with tons of gold.

haha, money is abhorrent yet "charming"....woohoo!!!halleluyah money!!!

Mary Merry

I am in love with one brand new korean drama recently, the actors and actresses are so friggin awesome.i would die to meet them in person.Aww!!

"Mary Stayed Out All Night" is a great drama, indeed. It is about a woman,Wi Mary(starred by Moon Geun Young and she is an extremely cute gal, not to mention her cute and fuzzy hair), she falls in love with a rockstar,Kang Mu Gyeol(starred Jang Geun Suk, who is a 100 % hottie, love his hair too)...

gosh, who did their hair in this drama, i should meet him soon....haha....He was not clear about his feeling towards her at first. However, when a rival comes up, Jeong In(not clear about his name, but he acted as the person with black fingernails in Coffee Prince), Kang awakened his feelings.

This drama also gives dramatic effects, love contract, huh, i know a lot of people like this kind of thingy, its not similar with Full House though, they break the contract easily, not to struggle like fools...Oops, did i say something??

TO TELL THE TRUTH!!!
I LIKE THE SECOND GUY BETTER!!!
He is a guy completely different from those in other dramas, he deserves the best, he was so cute and always tries to impress his beloved gal, i really hope that he can get his girl, but to think that Mary will have to leave Kang and betray her heart, its just not right. Ohh!!its real hard to choose between love and bread...><

and what i like about this drama??if you ask me this question, i would say, EVERYTHING!!!Especially her name, suits this festive season....

cupcakes

hahah......i made cupcakes today....
decorated them with my little brother,it was fun though....
i think that i am getting more into desserts.....feel like making more types of desserts in the future.....
making them just makes me feel like myself.....^^

sob sob

holly shit.....
holidays gonna end soon.....cant believe it!!!!
can i just pretend to not knowing it???
or should i report myself as missing person???gosh....i dont wanna start my degree....

just some silly sorry talk

i thought i can do this....

but,i was wrong...

i cannot do this....i cant...i really cant....how the hell can i keep my mind on things i should be worrying???i should not think about the past anymore....

you can do this...i know you can...even if you cannot,you still need to do it...

no other options left,except giving up this insignificant and messy life...

or i can just live a placid life....dont care even if i cant forget....its a part of me...it is what made me today....

life is nothing but cliche

life is nothing but cliche...it is very true indeed....we live in a world where all of us have our own responsibilities and duties....yet, we are bounded to rules and fear to change....when we are fear to change, the things we will experience are more over the same....not to say those who have careers such as teacher, nurse....

ironic~i am one of "those" people.....

what i will do everyday is the same~eat/sleep/rest/movie-ing...

and frankly, not only me....my friends also do the same things......ludicrous huh???

i wonder when will we~human being change.....to an extend where we can accept people changes without judging them by our very own selfish perspectives.....seriously, our society needed this desperately....well.....i need to start from myself...i guessed....

baby step is still a step....right....

i hate to admit this...but i think that i am a "hard" person....changes is like thousand miles away.....hahha....never mind....better late than never.....

once, i read an article.it says that life can be different for different people~
there was one remarkable sentence,
normal life is still a kind of life......

i will remember that always......

omg

OMGOMGOMG......my grammar test sucks.....the consequences of not studying.....haiz...i am so sad...oh man.....i cannot breathe anymore.....><

grrr

i know i know...i should be studying....but the nearer the exam....i am tempted to watch drama....play games....go into facebook and even go into tagged which i have been ignoring for so long.....nevertheless, sleeping...

by the way, what to study anyway??its the same after studying, i am still confused and dont know how to answer the questions...tada.....zero point for this...no one would agree with me....since all of them are studying.....i should too...right??guess so.....

well then, status updated....have a nice day...^^

just crapping@@

my brain is totally shut down now.....nothing can make it active anymore....only thinking about sleeping everyday.....not even 10 minutes for studying.....haiz...what to do???it is not my fault.....just let it be....right...

i wonder if i can get high marks when i dont even studying......if can, then, i need to admit that i am a genius...LOL...

yesterday, my lecturer mentioned that she wishes to let us go for benchmarking in oversea university, maybe in Australia or New Zealand....fir me its a good thing as i can learn more by doing so....and gets to travel...however, money is the problem...we need to save money for this....so, i dont know whether this "dream" will come true or not....wish that it could come true....

haiz...if i were born one year earlier, i would be one of the teslians who can go for twinning now....blame on my luck then.....coulod only dream about going overseas.....anyway, exam is coming soon, fighting!!! i need to focus on the nearest problem first right.....:)

nonsense

Exam is really around the corner now.....i havent touched my piles of books yet.....how am i going to face this exam???? i wonder why i am so lazy....the nearer the exams, the more i like to sleep.....feel like sleeping the whole time....haiz...maybe i just dont have the "study kind of thing" in my brain.....should get a chip for my brain soon.....huahuahua.....XD

hmm...

these days, i cant help but go to judge people....i did not do that by any mean...just do not have a reason for doing so....
plus, i will become a language teacher....so, i tend to look at people's grammar although mine is not good either....many things that i see now are grammar, questions and voices in my head that urge me to understand the problem....
i think this teacher's training really got into me though...

shattered

today was an okay day for me....but something made me felt bad today....i have really high self pride...you know"really high", it is undeniable and i dont know how to change....sad life, isnt it? i was asked to redo a part of my assignment, what an embarrassment for me....although it was only a small part, i still felt uneasy about it....then, something upsets me happened...it was not OURS fault, its just that we are not in a good sync???dont know...maybe...

these few days, i was reminded with "the" memories....dont know whether to say it's sad or happy ones...the sweet memories that used to be part of my joy now seem so empty...not even feel the existence..sweet promise is still a promise...adjectives can be changed, so, sweet can be broken too...
i will forget you from now on...no matter what happen...i promised...

EXAMS....

ohno.....exam is around the corner...i am dying here....how to study with my condition.....affected by the laziness disease....really going to die soon....not even enough time for me to study yet i do other things than study.....facebooking, gaming, dramaing, download songs....and fooling around....without any hesitation, i could say that i am the laziest among my friends....i still want to relax....how?what can i do?i am so afraid of the bloody exams.......SHIT....

WTF am i talking about???

huhu...long time no see...yay....finally see ya all again...as if someone is reading my blog...lol....
i wondered why are there people who are sado masochistic.....they just could not get enough of people suffering and they keep torturing them...i mean....not literally....haha...
i always feel pain when people ignore me....but then, i feel pain when people put too much attention on me too....so, am i a sado masochistic??guess so....i should just quit thinking too much and do as i want from now on....still, i cannot do it...too odd for me....and odd feeling i am having with all this "speak your heart loud" thing.....i just could not ignore anything....not my style....well...hope that i can try and ignore sometimes....by the way, ignorance is mercy to some people....lol

sucks

i'm having a bad day today....i prepared for my forum....but something unexpected came up...i really hate "surprise"...the saddest thing is...the thing that came up is not in my field...it was not supposed to be mine....i was very angry about this...or should i use "am"....then, i realise it is not as easy as you thought to compose yourself...i admit that i definitely cant do it.....its not easy for someone like me who always think of "repaying" people....

so, what can i do is, try not to be cruel...i would try...

uncountable works

for now, at this moment....i am dying of doing my assignments...it piles up like a mountain.....24 hours seems to be n ot enouh for me to finish them....i wonder if i can finish all those bloody courseworks.....not to mention all the activities that we need to organise and join....what a stressful semester for me....i am afraid that i could not cope with it....as exam is around the corner.....this is "the" exam that will determine my life or death....if i failed this, i might have no chance to continue my study and enter degree programme....argh.....so stress....what can i do....is only splattering here....what a sad life....by th way, we need to look forward to the positive side....so, i will think of this as an intensive training for me and my classmates to acquire better skills...especially time management...haha....and, a good news....our foundation programme is deemed to be recognized by the MQA (clapping)....

to my dearest classmates: dont worries, as long as we have done our best, you will not disappoint anyone...no matter how is the result...the only thing we need to do is work hard, play hard...enjoy our youth...

and...remember...we will have our prom after finishing all these things and nearly two months of holidays.....look forward to it....okay....yay....not so stress anymore...^^

die

the holiday is going to end soon....very soon...then i need to finish all my work, assignment, coursework, project and so on....too much to do and i havent even started....what to do??????

oh no.....i still got exam this year end and i have to join in a lot of activities too.....so stressful.....please somebody help me........

tuachuseyo....

KIM TAK GOO

wow....i am currently in love with a few korean drama especially the king of bakery kim tak goo...its very interesting as the stories make me want to watch it again and again...

there is a newcomer who is joo won in this drama...he is talented...he played as a villain in the drama but i ended up liking him...he is very good although he is new...

besides that, the story just has charisma and i cant help myself but falling in love with it....it will not bore u down even though it has total of 30 episodes....really exciting...

and....the songs inside are nice...u can try and check the song....wish that i could learn the song as fast as possible....

besides this drama,there are drama such as my girlfriend is a gumiho played by lee seunggi(one of my favourite entertainer-he played in brilliant legacy before) and shin min ah...not to mention the hot guy who is noh min woo who played as an evil but sweet vet in the drama....

be a korean fans and watch these drama....i am sure that all of you would fall in love with them....

WOW...KPOP ROCKS....@@

juz something

forgot to write something during my birthday.....here to say: happy belated birthday to myself......stay healthy and cute forever....lol...

i was so happy during my birthday since a lot of people greeted me.nevertheless, my aunt and her family celebrated it with me....by the way, i also hope to celebrate it grandly with my family...

but , one thing has changed my mind and thinking which i have been keeping on so long....dont guess...i wont tell it here...haha....let me tell you one story....

once upon a time, there's a girl who thought that a guy likes her very much.....however, it ended up that the guy was liking the girl beside the real girl....get what i mean?guess so.....no need to state it out clearly...

it is my story, i believe that everyone has their story which will only being understood by themselves....well,this story belongs to me....

lastly, happy raya for everyone.....since its the raya season, i hope that everyone can enjoy their holidays....by the way, dont eat too much,fat girls get a lot of complaints from tall,dark handsome guys......lmao

slow

everything goes slow these days,life is slow, line is slow....we need to fasten it a bit....however, life is meant to be slow sometimes, so that we can look back on our track and see if there is chance to do better...

however, when you finally find out that there is a chance to do something better...you need to move fast in order to change it.....

slow and fast compliments each other well......^^

HIMDURO

i feel tired...tired of everything...can i just stop??stop doing things,everything...

when things get hard for me, i always think like this...but, what can i change if i stop?will my life gets better?this is my question for myself...or, i will only make it hard for people around me??

i dont like telling people about my difficulty, i dont like sympathy...i always think that i can do it, i can make it by myself...but i'm human too...human will get tired, holding on something for so long...can i let it go now? but, even though not for myself, i need to hang on for the sake of some people...

i wish that i will be able to do it!fighting!!!

trouble/s

troubles never stop coming...i wonder why is it so...whenever there is human, there is trouble...however, joy is not in everywhere...but, we should be grateful, is it??no trouble means that i live a good life...hopefully that i will not encounter troubles...since trouble is troublesome and nevertheless, i hate trouble...so,troubles, please dont bother to trouble me...okay??

"someone"

Holly shit....i hate this...damn her...what the...she thought we are studying in kindergarten or what??just go to your old school and teach your students like that...this is not a school!man!it is so called college even with insufficient facilities...you think we are not qualified enough?do not judge a book based on the cover!criticizing others work without knowing is not a good manner...kampung gal???oh man...and it will only do you no good by saying that our hard work is rubbish...try not to judge too much...get it???

believe?lmao

Believe is what??can we believe someone based on reasons??no... right..so, why is there a term called believe...it should not exist...we should just mind our own business and try not to bother others just because you believe him or not believe in him...nonsense...i hate people who said "i believe in you" but eventually do something different from their saying...shit man...f***ing shit...try to reflect on yourself if you are such a person...this is non-personal, do not get it personally,okay...:(

p/s: people, come to your senses...there is no such word as believe..even if there is this word, it is only a factor which shows you the seriousness of betrayal...if there is no believe, no betrayal will exist!mind this!!!

a day without fresh air

Feel like dont have the time to manage blog this few days...busied with everything but yet, no result shown....

today, i feel like saying this foul word...however, as a future teacher, i cant say it out...

why is there people who brings salted fish to class??i have met one person, or maybe two or more...the smell from their so called salted fish was killing me....almost fainted because of that....oh my gosh....cant stand it...

i hope that people who realizes that he or she is the "one" who is producing salted yet disgusting fish will try to, you know, be a bit of hygienic...just use some product to cover that stinky smell.....-_-""

here's a suggestion: buy DETTOL....OKAY??phew...

one day>>

one day, you will realize, everything you do now will be worthy in the future...one day, you will realize, the most important things in the world is family...one day, you will realize, friends play a significant part in our life...one day, you will realize, there is nothing impossible in this world which you cant do...one day, you will be able to find your destined one...but this one day is occurring in our mind...if you think this one day has come, you will be happier now...if you are still waiting for this one day...you are a pathetic creature...i wish that i had realized that this one day has come a long time ago...then, i would be happier from long time ago...appreciate what you have...^^..it takes time for us to realize the importance things you are ignoring long time ago...take your time....fighting^-^


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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pNrWiOFOO28

fight, gurls

Human is a type of creature who has the ability to love...love is an important element in our life...we do things out of love...love towards family, lovers, friends, and even enemies...

in Malaysia, girls seldom approach guys first...why? culture...the society views girls as submissive and that is why,we are shy.....

now that i think about it, we (girls) should be brave enough to love...if you do not even have the courage to fight for your love, there is no point for keeping that(secret) love..people who admires people secretly is really stupid...

a simple advice here...fight for your love...go tell him/her about your love...keeping it in heart just as same as burying it under ground...no offence here....

wishes: dun worry, be happy!!!^^

Betrayal vs Forgiveness

Forgive what others did wrong and forget their wrongs

I am(alright,maybe "was") in a moody mode today..maybe its true that human gets influence by others easily..i have nothing to be sad about(for today)...however, most of my friends was quiet today...

so, what i thought was: i better keep my mouth shut too!...now, here's the point, what for to keep our mouth shut when your friends are set to silent mode??

i dont know, but i think wouldn't it be better if we just be more talkative during that time and change our position from being influenced to influential...get it??i bet not...haha..just kidding..

what i am saying is, we need to cheer up the situation a bit,so that our "gloomy pal" can be a cheerio too..ahh...forget about this..

ok, what do you guys think of..erm..betrayal??can you forgive someone after he/she betrayed you especially your close-friend?

for me, i could never do that..i think only "altruistic people" will ever do the forgiving part...i have encountered this situation before..and my decision was: not talking to that particular person in a half-year..hard to believe,right?

but now, i'm trying to be a bit open as my lecturer advised us to.."do not judge people too much, think from different perspectives, try and walk in other's shoes"..(sounds unachieveable)..

if you was/are/will be in this kinda situation, try to forgive that person and do not try to take revenge since retaliation is not good...only brings you to a bad position...as revenge never ends...think about it..

wishes for today: wish that i could try and put myself in other's shoes!

be more forgiving!

go for real shopping(not just window shopping)...hopefully!!!^^

2010 started-Wetland

educational trip to wetland with my classmates...process of learning to plant mangrove swamps(trees)...
enjoying our lunches at McDonald after so much hard work..delicious Big Mac...feel like eating now.....hmm..

even though this trip was tiring..the satisfication that i have gained from it is non-replaceable by anything...it was a trip with great values and precious moment with my friends...

Freedom

Today, one of my friends sent me a song "FREEDOM" by Akon..actually, i dont listen to Akon's songs so much...however, as my friend was caring enough to share, i decided to play the song..it talks about freedom...

there a line which is" i wanna be free" in the lyrics...i think most people have this kind of thinking before...(i believe so)..me too..

whenever i'm in trouble, i will think about being freed from troubles..freedom is abstract, we can never see freedom and it is not easy for us to define it...

however, you can feel it as if it is real...(at least we are not living in an authoritarian country)..haha..so, be grateful of your life, dont complain much and enjoy your life to the fullest...^^

wishfortoday: Live as happy as you can!!!

Guilty

Have you ever feel guilty? i bet most of you felt that before, right? i felt it too, sometimes.. guilty is something like a guilty conscience. when you did something wrong , you will have this feeling no matter you want it or not.but its different story for maniacs..i guessed..

however, i am feeling guilty right now at this moment not because of my wrongdoing. it is because i did not do anything...have you ever felt that you could do something but you are obliged to some kind of "social rules". and you tend to forget your ability to do something...i think i have forgotten my ability to do a lot of things...wish that i could gain it back in some time...

today, i read about something really interesting..it stated a question,

"why do you think they produce pencils with erasers on the top?"

its an interesting question to be thought of...everyone makes mistakes, no matter how strong you are, you cannot avoid mistakes...

the erasers are prepared for us to rub off our mistakes and correct it..do not ever feel that you are weak because you made a lot of mistakes, it is not your fault, it is the challenge from the God to ensure that you can overcome any obstacles in your life...

accept every challenges and make them your successes..promise??

wish for today: wealth,health to everyone...choops..

my TESL classmates

my fellow classmates...

the whole TESL class

see some of our cute pictures...brings amusement to you all...(i guessed)..the pictures is about the banner of our first English carnival which is held during April...kinda fun during that time....cheers

Started

To tell you the truth, i joined this blogger because of one reason.To visit my friends blog since i have already had my own blog in somewhere else...its tiring to have two blogs...for me, i guessed...however, i hope that i could use this space to share the things that i have learned in my daily life and deliver some good message to people through here...as we know, communication is very important, this is why i am using this to communicate with the world...by the way, i am a korean's lover and a bit of environmentalist..alright, maybe a bit of dramaholic too...so, you guys gonna see a lot of those related stuff here...deal with it...could you??