what am i??

gosh~even my friend said that i am cruel...am i??i dont know, but what should i do??

i dont even know the truth, how can i be honest about it??it is a confusing matter to me...and i dont know how to handle this.

sob sob...

PERPLEX

you are perplexing~

you are confusing~

you are a jerk~

you are going to get it~

you are what i call son of a bitch~

you are nothing good but a toyer~

we are not on the same wavelength~

i am who i am

life is too short to worry about what others think about you~enjoy your life to the fullest...this is my policy for this year~

i am going to do what i want and live a happier life...

i really enjoyed my life these few days..i played tennis every evening and i feel relax after sweating~and i am happy that i have improved a lot on my skills.

i am contented and happy now for i am who i am..no need to wear a mask and be someone else anymore. i will just voice out my thought and let people notice about it.

and i am starting my healthy lifestyle now..sleep early, enjoy sport and drink lotsa water~

well, everyone, i recommend you start your healthy lifestyle now, it can improve your health and decrease the risks of getting illness~

OptiMistic for liFe

hmm....nothing to write actually~but i just feel like writing....what to write....just something....

ya, today, i listened to a story of someone...its quite sad...he is someone who is so optimistic, i dont even know that he is in such a sad situation...he lives in a wooden house, i dont know whether its a hut or house...but it has nothing but a few cans of canned food...i feel like he is very brave...well, there is a lot in this, i better dont go deeper....

what i want to say is, a lot of us are not satisfied with our own lives, we always feel like we are lack of something, but if you compare yourself with others...you can feel their passion in life and how they struggle to do their best...it is a value that all of us must learn and be contented with our life..be optimistic no matter what position you are in~

so tired yet satisfied~
this is my feeling right at this moment~

for my game in co-curriculum, we are given "TENNIS", yes, yes, the "orang puteh" game.

as our lecturer told us, it was recognised as a King Tennis/ Royal tennis~seems unapproachable, right. and this is also the reason why i was afraid of playing tennis before. i think i was not qualified to play it, but, i have changed my mind now. it is a great game and suitable for everyone.

i am not good in sport, and i always discourage myself. well, sport is not my niche...
but, i believe that i would improve day by day...i have been playing tennis for two days now, and i feel that it is addictive, just like badminton. i was unable to serve and hit the ball yesterday, but i managed to serve it and hit some balls accurately, i think i will be better next time around.i wish to~

and what makes me happy is, all people seem to be so excited about this game, actually this is the second day we have gotten our racquet, yet, we played it twice already, can you see the "FIRE"...IT IS REALLY BURNING NOW...HAHHAHAA

and the pictures~to share, though it is not mine, it is the first tennis racquet that i ever have~

hope that people who read this post will be interested in tennis also~it is fun and you will never let go of the racquet~

english teacher in progress

i had two days of class~hmm...still not have the mood to study yet....

and guess what, for this time being, i like my sport for the very first time...tada, it is tennis, i guess i like sports which use racquets~haha...

by the way, i am going to learn some new knowledge this semester~i dont really feel interested in the subjects...since i am not a geek...haha...i am a sleepy pig~

we are taking language arts starting this semester, and the first thing we need to learn is children literature...frankly, i feel like it is too superficial...i mean child's lit,since we have already studied literature, i cant change my way of thinking by putting it in a simpler manner...i always think the hard part....so, i am going to train myself for that....

and we are learning the loathsome phonetics and phonology~argh...cant be;ieve i still need to go deeper into this...it is too difficult for me...i am not good in the topic...haiz...going to work hard, no other way out~

...english teacher in progress...

to my dearest father ,with love

after a long time of rest,i am finally back to this college~well, as a teacher, being punctual is crucial,so, i arrived here in the morning~

nothing to do now, indeed, only concentrating on my games~haha...and by the way, today's Father's Day, though i want to celebrate it, my father has left us, hmm...counting, quite a long time already,nine years, not a short period huh~

and guess what, though i dont want to admit it, i miss him(i found that father's day is the only day that i can actually miss him)...i wish he was there for me when i was depressed, i wish he was there to give me advices, to scold me for doing wrong things....but, i know it is not possible...however,his leaving gives me courage, makes me stronger and less vulnerable to all the challenges...and those are the things which make me who i am today.

i want to say:HAPPY FATHER'S DAY, my dear father~although you are not the best in the world, you are the best in my heart...and, i know you are somewhere out there, watching over us, and protecting us. Thank you, and, i miss you...

results

dup dap dup dap~muet result is coming...and my academic result to..so nervous, can i dont check it??TT

you broke my heart-alexandra burke

You Broke My Heart Lyrics

Oooohhh

You know that I would follow you
To the end of the Earth
And maybe I was kinda bold
You shouldn't know my words

I was waiting for the time to remind you
You were in love
What I gave was so incredible
But it was never enough

You took my love
And broke my heart
You took my smile
And tore it apart
You left me crying
Down on the floor
The funny thing is
I still want more
If only you love me like I wanted you to
But you trick me into loving you
You tore me apart
You broke my heart

You charm me with your little ways
You knew the buttons of praise
And you said I was your everything
But boy you couldn't care less
And you said we'd be together forever
Now look what you've done

What I gave was so incredible
But it was never enough

You took my love
And broke my heart
You took my smile
And tore it apart
You left me crying
Down on the floor
http://www.elyricsworld.com/you_broke_my_heart_lyrics_alexandra_burke.html
The funny thing is
I still want more
If only you love me like I wanted you to
But you trick me into loving you
You tore me apart
You broke my heart

All that I needed
was someone to hold me
And all that I wanted
was someone to show me
just what it is to be loved
And I hoped that someone was you

Oohhhh

You took my love
And broke my heart
You took my smile
And tore it apart
You left me crying
Down on the floor
The funny thing is
I still want more
If only you love me like I wanted you to
But you trick me into loving you
You broke my heart
You broke my heart
You tore me apart
you broke my heart
You broke my heart

GIVE UP

GIVE IT UP GIVE IT UP GIVE IT UP UP UP UP~

That should be me-JB

THAT SHOULD BE ME-JB

Ouuuuuuu
ouuuuuuuu

Everybody's laughing in my mind,
Rumors spreading 'bout this other guy,
Do you do what you did when you
did with me?
Does he love you the way I can?
Did you forget all the plans
that you made with me?
'cause baby I didn't!


That should be me,
Holdin' your hand,
That should be me
Makin' you laugh,
That should be me,
This is so sad,
That should be me,
That should be me,
That should be me,
Feelin' your kiss,
That should be me,
Buyin' you gifts,
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
Till you believe that,
That should be me

Ouuuuuuu
ouuuuuuuu

That should be me,
Yeah,
You said you needed a little time
For my mistakes,
It's funny how you used that time
To have me replaced,
Did you think that I wouldn't see you out at the movies
Whatcha doin' to me,
You're takin' him where we used to go,
Now if you're tryin' to break my
http://www.elyricsworld.com/that_should_be_me_lyrics_justin_bieber.html
heart,
It's working 'cause you know that,...

Chorus:

That should be me,
Holdin' your hand,
That should be me,
Makin' you laugh,
That should be me,
This is so sad,
That should be me,
That should be me,
That should be me,
Feelin' your kiss,
That should be me ,




Buyin' you gifts,
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
Till you believe that,
That should be me

I need to know should I fight
For our love for this long
It's getting harder to shield
This pain in my heart!!!

Chorus:
That should be me,
Holdin' your hand,
That should be me,
Makin' you laugh,
That should be me,
This is so sad,
That should be me,
That should be me,
That should be me,
Feelin' your kiss,
That should be me,
Buyin' you gifts,
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
Till you believe that,
That should be me,
Holding your hand,
That should be me,
Oh i makin you laugh, oh Baby,
That should be me,
(that should be me givin you flowers)
That should be me,
Talking by hours,that should be me, that should be me,
that should be me

Never should've let you go,!
I never should've let you go,!
That should be me!! <3
Never should've let you go
That should be me!!<3

That should be me~~~

second ent~

OKAY,now is the time for my second entry during holidaysssssss~~~~~~~~~

from what i promised before, my night meal...haha