smile??

i dont know exactly what happened.

but it seems that i see that person everywhere i go

besides hostel

hmm

i guess i need to find some other road to walk on

it's like,

i met that person three to four times in a day~

cant really remember

and,

what would you do

giving a SMILE each time?

it just seems funny.

well

i guess i really need to find a "my path" to walk on~

Jar Of Hearts

Jar Of Hearts

By: Christina Perri

I know I can't take one more step towards you  

Cause all that's waiting is regret  

And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore  

You lost the love 

 I loved the most 

 I learned to live, half a life  

And now you want me one more time  

Who do you think you are  

Runnin' round leaving scars  

Collecting your jar of hearts  

And tearing love apart 

You're gonna catch a cold  

From the ice inside your soul  

So don't come back for me 

Who do you think you are 

 I hear you're asking all around  

If I am anywhere to be found 

But I have grown too strong  

To ever fall back in your arms  

I learned to live, half a life 

And now you want me one more time  

Who do you think you are 

 Runnin round leaving scars 

 Collecting your jar of hearts  

And tearing love apart  

You're gonna catch a cold 

From the ice inside your soul  

So don't come back for me  

Who do you think you are

  It took so long just to feel alright  

Remember how to put back the light in my eyes

  I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed  

Cause you broke all your promises  

And now you're back  

You don't get to get me back  

Who do you think you are  

Runnin' round leaving scars 

 Collecting your jar of hearts 

 And tearing love apart 

 You're gonna catch a cold  

From the ice inside your soul  

So don't come back for me 

 Don't come back at all 

And who do you think you are?  

Runnin round leaving scars  

Collecting your jar of hearts  

And tearing love apart  

You're gonna catch a cold  

From the ice inside your soul 

 Don't come back for me  

Don't come back at all  

Who do you think you are?  

Who do you think you are? 

Who do you think you are? 

this song reminded me of someone

this song is dedicated to those who hurt other people's feelings

though it is hurting

though i might still have feeling for you

you can just stay leave forever

dont come back 

dont come back at all

your face would only remind me of the past

which i hope to forget

it's better this way.

who do you think you are?

i really want to ask you this question.

who are you to act so hail and mighty?

you are nothing but a JERK!

A great moment

today was a long journey. but i am contented, satisfied, happy and watever it is, in a good mood~


we held a muet seminar and a closing ceremony for this english week. it was terrific. and what makes me happy is that our class has won two prizes. first one, the young journalist competition, we won the first prize.


what surprised me most is that we also won the sketch competition. although we had only practiced for one night, we won the competition. i am so happy and glad.


i had a great time and we have an upcoming musical sketch. i hope that we can do a good job. well, with our class, i guarantee, it will be great.

Paths that i walked through

i had walked through a lot of new things these few days~


last night, we participated in a sketch competition. and we only prepared our sketch on the night before. although a lot of conflicts had happened, we still remain united...and as our class motto says: nothing is impossible until it's done.



in our sketch, we were doing si tanggang the parody. i was really nervous during the show. and i even read my dialogue wrongly. but i am thankful that i have a group of friends who are so good in acting. i really enjoyed this sketch, and i dont know why, i feel like i like acting actually. especially when we had lots of fun during the practice.



it is just so happened that, we can work together really well in critical period, and i think, this is the TESL spirit of our class. as for the show, i was acting as si tanggang, who was a guy, where i had acted it like a girl. nevermind, maybe it is a girlish tanggang~



though it seems impossible, but i hope that we will get a prize for the sketch competition. even if it's a consolation prize. hehehe...well, i'm going off to bed first, go to dream~

p/s, i am proud of my class, no matter what other people say!

all or nothing at all

it is nothing to you~

it's nothing to me~

all or nothing at all~

I know when he's been on your mind
That distant look is in your eye
I thought with time you'd realize
It's over over
It's not the way I choose to live
And something somewhere's got to give
As sharing this relationship gets older older
You know I'd fight for you
But how I can fight someone who isn't even there
I've had the rest of you now I want the best of you
I dont care if that's not fair

Chorus:
Cause I want it all
Or nothing at all
There's no where left to fall
When you reach the bottom it's now or never
Is it all
Or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing at all

There are times it seems to me
I'm sharing you with memories
I feel it in my heart
But I dont show it show it
And then there's times you look at me
As though I'm all that you can see
Those times I don't believe it's right
I know know it

Don't me make me promises
Baby you never did know how to keep them well
I've had the rest of you
Now I want the best of you
It's time for show and tell

Chorus

Cause you and I
Could lose it all if you've got no more room
No room inside for me in your life
Cause I want it all
Or nothing at all
There's no where left to fall
It's now or never

Chorus x2 


i like this song recently~it is just so perfect~


we are always confused with what people do, or it is just that person is trying to make you confused...only that you dont realise that.but this is the way it is, isnt it?people always prepare a road for themselves when they are afraid of moving ahead.




i am like that, i am afraid that i will lose everything at the end, that's why i do not move on~and this is why, if you want to do something, give all your heart into it, and if you are not sure that you can do it, do not start it at all~

Drawing

i really like drawing~





but, usually, i dont have the time to draw~but recently, as my work has gotten lesser, i have the time to draw for my leisure





well, my drawing is not really good, or fantastic, or that kind that people would go hell oh about it~but, as long as i like it, i love it, i will keep doing it~





i really hope my life can be like a drawing...




erase some parts which are spoiled when i feel like...




touch up some parts which is not enough for me....




and i can add in colours on my own...




not depending on anyone,




only me, myself...




but, dream is only a dream, well, time to wake up and do some chores~





tada~

GRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DAMN!!!she is just another s perfectionist~never going to be satisfied!!!!

why??why??why??? i know the reason~ just because i am too stupid... i knew it... but i cant do anything about it... i am too stupid to admit it i am too proud of myself to admit it i am too comfortable with the way i am i was blurred confused though i am saying it now i am only expressing i will never have the courage to change or should i say i will not bother to change though it is not true i prefer it in this way dont change it ever let it be just the way it was, let it be the way it is, and it will ever ever and ever..... Change-YQ

Savouring

how to enjoy chocolate~ Savor chocolate. Whether you chew, allow to melt in the mouth or drink your chocolate, enjoy it slowly and with enjoyment. Take out time to discern the notes in chocolate for yourself and to try and develop a tasting repertoire that suits you. Chocolate differs in taste and quality in the same way as wine, whiskey, cognac, seafood and game meats do. Learn to appreciate the subtleties over time. And share with a friend--become experts together! Focus on nothing but the chocolate. This works with most tasty foods but is especially appealing with chocolate. Close your eyes and cut off all sensory information except the chocolate. Pay attention to the taste and details of the entire piece, moving around in your mouth and savoring the flavor. Allow the chocolate to overwhelm your senses and don't let anything else bother you, at least for the time being.

all of a suddeni like Linkin Park's song-Leave Out All The Rest

i dreamed i was missing
you were so scared
but no one would listen
cause no one else cared
after my dreaming
i woke up with this fear
what am i leaving when i'm done here
so if you're asking me i want you to know

when my time comes
forget the wrong that i've done
help- me leave behind some reasons to be missed
dont resent me
when you're feeling empty
keep me in your memory
leave out all the rest
leave out all the rest

dont be afraid
i've taken my beating
i've shared what i made
i'm strong on the surface
not all the way through
i've never been perfect
but neither have you
so if you're asking me i want you to know

when my time comes
forget the wrong that i've done
help- me leave behind some reasons to be missed
dont resent me
when you're feeling empty
keep me in your memory
leave out all the rest
leave out all the rest
forgetting all the hurt inside you've learned to hide so well
pretending someone else can come and save me from myself
i cant be who you are

HumAn NatuRe?FunnY

just finished my school based yesterday....having mixed feeling now....i feel lost, dont know what to do....i think i have lost the meaning of "life"...p/s, i dont mean commit suicide here~

i just feel like going far away and do what i like...not staying here, sleeping, eating, doing assignments, having lectures, and doing the same routine over and over again...

i just feel like get away from here, it's hard to describe, and it's funny~i dont like meeting with some people, but we always meet~is it just simply encounter or fate? is it just an event of strangers meeting each other? or a story of us?

i dont know, and i am afraid to know, i am afraid to know that if it's just a facade, that you created, along all this time~

i need some time, to really think about this, not seeing you might be the best solution~maybe you are just that someone that all of us will meet once in a lifetime...someone who shows what life is all about?the selfishness of human~the lies of human~