2012?

OH MY GOSH!!i am welcoming 2012 with sickness. Sorethroat, cough and flu. what a great life:(

By the way, i got a new haircut. Again, i think i am addicted to cutting my hair, should be considering getting a bald head someday~

hoho...anyway, Happy new year everyone!

p/s: A good advice, tomorrow is 31st of DEC, if you are staying at KK like me, dont ever go out. or you will be stuck on the road for hours. #bad experience, traffic jam always makes me vomit~

GRANDMA

Hhohoho..i went shopping but did not find anything except food interesting....I guess it is the effect of being home for too long....phew...or maybe i am anticipating to shop at kl, so, i was not even intending to shop here. hahahaa....that's me, so realistic.

And i have wonderful meal prepared by my grandmother today. Just a simple explanation. my grandmother is from my maternal site, and i was living with her since i was small, until i was five. And i moved back to beaufort to study. And she was the one who took care of me, and now, she is still doing so, with more grey hair on her scalp, and leg that can no longer walk quickly as it used to be due to autism. I am grateful that she is still beside me, after so many things. I feel awful sometimes, for not talking with her much, just because i dont have topic with her anymore, as i am more to outside world.

I promise, i will appreciate every moment i have with you, grandma, and i will help you to dye you grey hair, as you requested so many times. hehe...

People, every moment with family is a gift from GOD.

MERRYMERRY

Well, Christmas is really coming soon. and my job, is nearing its end. today is my last day, and i am impressed by myself, how can i work for one month in a stuffy office???

As they say, human is capable of doing anything if we wanted to,  if we couldnt, it's because we think that we cant.

tada!gotta go..

pls: MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Care enough?

Just a simple picture, simple movement. Portraying the love of a father to a daughter.

Why is this so hard for some people?

Appreciate every moment you have with your parents.

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well, the result is out, and i have not checked it.

i think i will only look into it after 2011,meaning to say 2012.

hope that it is okay~

Friends or Facebook?

Frankly. what do we know about friends?


I used to have so many friends, but only a few were able to click with me, yeah, we had the chemistry.


During that time, i see them almost everyday, talk to them, walk with them, smile and laugh with them, and i thought, woah, they are the best friends i could ever have, this was during my secondary school. But the fact is, since we have left school, and further our study, our relationship also got further, we dont text each other anymore, we dont call each other anymore, what's left is just adding a name in the friendlist in facebook. I'd be lucky if some of the still remember my birthday and text me.


And during my national service, this is worse, i guess people do need friends anywhere they go. I am. I met some friends and soon, they became my best friends. Since it is national service, we went through so many things together, that i dont even able to believe that i have done all those nonsense training. We quarreled, we laughed, we were scolded and punished together, ran together, walked in the rain together, we did almost everything together, including going to toilet at night, as we are afraid of ghosts, told by the trainers in national service, maybe they just want to scare us, so that we dont go out at night. Go back to the point, the thing is, when they left after finishing the training, my heart sank and i felt terrible, i cried for a day, seriously. But now, they are just labeled as acquaintances in facebook. It's funny,isn't it?


Till now, in IPG, i met new people again, and i found THEM..Yeah, my new friends, well, it's been two years and a half, not so new anymore. We are experiencing a lot of things together, and though we had misunderstanding, fight, we still standby each other when things dont go our way. And honestly, through the obstacles that we went through, we know each other better. Well, i hope that after we graduated, they will not only be the names in my facebook friendlist. I guess not.


So, now, something for us to reflect. Does facebook really help in socialization and relationship? Where everyone has hundreds, and even thousands of friends in facebook, yet, knowing only a few of them, and a lot of acquaintances. worser, a lot of them are unknown, just added you because you have mutual friends. If it's like this, why dont you just create a fan page for them. sigh~ so, guys, reflect and go to find real friends in real life, not in facebook, it's because of facebook that i stop contacting my friends, since i think it's so convenient that i can see them each day in facebook. And in fact, it's too convenient that i dont even try to chat with them, as their names show everytime i log in facebook. i was thinking that they are always here, i dont need to find them now, i will have the time. but our friendship got further, and further.

Broken-hearted Girl

okay~it's time for the song of the day:) haha...

namely~BROKEN HEARTED GIRL by Beyonce Knowles

a nice song indeed.

Broken-hearted Girl lyrics

You’re everything I thought you never were

And nothing like I thought you could’ve been

But still you live inside of me

So tell me how is that?

You’re the only one I wish I could forget

The only one I’d love enough to not forgive

And though you break my heart, you’re the only one 

And though there are times when I hate you

Cause I can’t erase

The times that you hurt me 

And put tears on my face

And even now while I hate you

It pains me to say

I know I’ll be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe

I don’t want a broken heart

Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe

I don’t wanna play that part

I know that I love you

But let me just say

I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no

I don’t want a broken heart

And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No...No

No broken-hearted girl

I’m no broken-hearted girl

Something that I feel I need to say

But up to now I’ve always been afraid

That you would never come around

And still I want to put this out

You say you’ve got the most respect for me

But sometimes I feel you’re not deserving me

And still you’re in my heart

But you’re the only one and yes

There are times when I hate you

( From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/b/beyonce-lyrics/broken,,hearted-girl-lyrics.html )

But I don’t complain

Cause I’ve been afraid that you would've walk away

Oh but now I don’t hate you

I’m happy to say

That I will be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe

I don’t want a broken heart

Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe

I don’t wanna play that part

I know that I love you 

But let me just say

I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no

I don’t want a broken heart

And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No…No

No broken-hearted girl

Now I’m at a place I thought I’d never be…Oooo

I’m living in a world that’s all about you and me…yeah

Ain't gotta be afraid my broken heart is free

To spread my wings and fly away

Away With you 

yeah yeah yeah, ohh ohh ohh

I don’t wanna be without my baby

I don’t wanna a broken heart

Don’t want to take a breath with out my baby

I don’t wanna play that part

I know that I love you 

But let me just say

I don’t want to love you in no kind of way..No..No

I don’t want a broken heart 

I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl..No..No..

No broken-hearted girl

Broken-hearted girl No…no… 

No broken-hearted girl

No broken-hearted girl

Wish you were here

Hey yo~there's only a few days before christmas, so, i think everyone has a plan on this special day, right? and i bet that person is the one you miss the most and hope to see everyday~

here's a song that i like recently, kinda off the christmas mood, but thumbs up for the lyrics and great melody!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VT1-sitWRtY

TADA~it's WISH YOU WERE HERE BY AVRIL LAVIGNE

I can be tough

I can be strong

But with you, It's not like that at all

Theres a girl who gives a shit

Behind this wall

You just walk through it

[refrain]

And I remember all those crazy thing you said

You left them running through my head

You're always there, you're everywhere

But right now I wish you were here

All those crazy things we did

Didn't think about it just went with it

You're always there, you're everywhere

But right now I wish you were here

[chorus]

Damn, Damn, Damn,

What I'd do to have you

Here, Here, Here

I wish you were here

Damn, Damn, Damn,

What I'd do to have you

Near, Near, Near

I wish you were here.

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Changing for the better!

hell yeah, CHRISTMAS is coming soon, i'm changing this blog to a merri-some blog.:D

see the fonts and background?hmm...anticipating for the great day...

words for SANTA:

 I wish to celebrate a "White Christmas", at least once in a lifetime~

Someone like you

Seriously, this song is nice, the more i hear it, the nicer it gets.


drum rolling~~~~~tramtramtrraaammmmmmmdram!


ADELE-SOMEONE LIKE YOU


                                                                 "Someone Like You"

I heard that you're settled down
That you found a girl and you're married now.
I heard that your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you.

Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,"
Yeah.

You know how the time flies
Only yesterday was the time of our lives
We were born and raised
In a summer haze
Bound by the surprise of our glory days

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."

Nothing compares
No worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes
They are memories made.
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."

ENJOY~

Change

I did a lot of thinking these days. due to some reason, i found out that life is precious, more precious than what i thought.

i used to think that everything is fate, we cant change anything and what we need to do is just go through it~i always say this:"we dont have to worry too much, if we are going to die, nothing can stop it. "

But, when the time comes, can we really stay back and do nothing? I CANT.

i used to be so full of myself and think that i am so different from anybody else, that i can accept whatever is given by fate and destiny, and GOD. but frankly, when something bad happens, i blame people, i blame fate, and even GOD. i know it is wrong, but if you walk in my shoes, you would know how it feels like.

hence, i decide to change, change myself, for the upcoming year, for a better me.

i want to have a healthy lifestyle, and change my attitude. after going through this, i found out that holding on to something hard enough doesnt mean anything. so, i am going to let it go. just focus on my life, and dont be too obsess with other things. dont be too greedy. all of those things dont mean anything, they give you desire, fame, happiness, but only for a short period, the most important ones should be families.

they are the most important in my life, nothing is better than having a harmonious, and families who care for you, truly deeply from their heart.

so, it's time to change.

Power of MONEY

this holiday is really boring~~~~~

i do nothing but the same routine everyday:
-wake up
-going to work
-have lunch
-going back to work
-go home
-having a nap
-watch tv
-bath
-sleep

this is life~i guess my only excitement during this holiday is anticipating MERLIN...since i like this drama soooooo much~it's season 4 now!

and here's something ludicrous...you know what, i dont have faith in insurance. in fact, i dont trust it, and i think it was created to con people. but due to some factors-such as the "scarcity" of money, i disobey my principle and work for insurance. HA!this is the power of MONEY! i guess my principle does not worth much....

TIPS for Exam:)

1. okay....here is some tips on how you can get through your exam...(cheers)...i found this somewhere over the rainbow....
2. 1. When taking tests, relax. If you're fidgety, or worried that you'll fail the test, you're sure to get a low score. If you studied for it long enough that you know the information, then you shouldn't be worried about getting a low grade. (this is very important, take note)
3. 2. Don't stress yourself. Act cool and calm. 
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   3. Write good legible notes. Colored pens are fun to write with if you want to get more creative with your notes, but use them only for sections of your notes that you feel will be on a test or that are important. It makes them stand out. Use highlighters if there's something you need to find easily flipping through your notes, but don't highlight too much text or it destroys the point.(no wonder highlighters are getting expensive nowadays)
5. 4. Making your notes fun to read will make them much easier to understand when you go back to look!(AHA!I have drawn a chimpanzee to study kohler's theory)11118
6. 5. Invent a fun way to study. Don't study all in one night, study a bit each night. Your brain cannot take in so much information all at once. Make flash cards, have a friend over, or join an after-school homework club if you can for help from a teacher or a friend from the same class. A lot of people think studying is "lame" or "boring". You can make up a board game to make studying fun and easy, or you can just type up your notes if it makes it easier to read. Do as much as possible to make sure you know the material.
7. 6. Eat a good healthy breakfast . it is known that if students eat a good and healthy breakfast every morning they are known to get good grades in school and are able to focus better in school.
8. 7. Have good relationships with the teachers. If you don't they may give you an A- instead of an A if you are mean, don't pay attention, or don't listen to their advice, it can affect your grade.(haha....this one is funny...are you thinking of what i am thinking of??)
9. 8. this is from me! bring notes to the exam hall~hhahaha
10. 9. pray a lot and wish that you will pass although you have not studied.
11. 10. do all as above~

crap

i really dontwannastudy><

OMG!!!there're a lot of things that i have not studied.....mood:gonnadiesoon...><

how do i live

recently, i listened to songs from years ago...and i like this song again..."How do i live" by TRISHA YEARWOOD.

I guess everyone knows this song, it has become an anthem now...

How do I get through one night without you

If I had to live without you

What kind of life would that be

Oh I, I need you in my arms

Need you to hold

You're my world, my heart, my soul

If you ever leave

Baby, you would take away everything good in my life.

Without you, there'd be no sun in my sky

There would be no love in my life

There would be no world left for me and I,

Baby I don't know what I would do

I'd be lost if I lost you

If you ever leave

Baby, you'd take away everything real in my life.

Chorus:

And tell me now

How do I live without you

I want to know

How do I breathe without you

If you ever go

How do I ever, ever survive,

How do I

How do I

Oh, how do I live?

If you ever leave

Baby you would take away everything

Need you with me

Baby, don't you know

That your everything good in my life.

And tell me now

How do I live without you

I want to know

How do I breathe without you

If you ever go

How do I ever, ever, survive

How do I

How do I

Oh, how do I live?

How do I live

Without you baby?...

OZIBALA 5

it is almost exam time days again.....sigh.....why should human study?????

and i enjoyed my weekends without studying...haha....i even went to the beach with my family....huauauahuhauhaua......

really forgotten about the bloody exam....hmm...

but now, i have to study.....but what to be studied???

lol.....

spending time with family is the best time we have in life....

appreciate your time with them~:)

D-DAY

this D-DAY`!

exam starts today~hmm....i've studied enough,......to pass....haha....

well....studying is not my niche...i think....i can do better if they ask me about korean dramas, artists and entertainment....i would have gotten 80 marks at least....wahahhAHA

AHA....kohler said so.....hahaha....

what the F am i talking about???

ugh....i dont know......

will i be dead later??guess what....nope...but brain-dead???-------------->YES

LOL.....TROLOLOLOLOLOL!!!!

i am really getting crazy now...chow...tata

Smurfity smurf smurf smurf

hey, i dont know what i am doing right now. i should be studying, but i did not...screw it, who cares....lol

i did something bad....haha...and i feel good about it..

i did it on purpose, and it's my sweet revenge, how do you feel about it? nice or not? i bet it's all mixed up now, huh! nah, maybe i just made it all up in my head. maybe.....\

but i am having fun doing this. and i think i will do it for some more time. although it is a bit of distracting and BADDASS...but who cares? i am smurfingly happy doing this!

I SMURF YOU. figure out the meaning yourself!

tik tok

maybe i should busy myself with things, so that i would not think too much about things.

exam is around the corner right now, i have not studied much and i just dont feel like doing so~

and i just want to watch dramas, movies and whatever that i can watch, to fill up my time, lessening my feeling of guilt~TT

and i am thinking of something~something really EVIL....hahhaa....dont be curious~

CURIOSITY KILLS THE CAT, IT KILLS US ALL!

OZIBALA 4

my sister came back for holiday. but, unfortunately, i cannot meet her for a long time, cause i have things to do, and exam is coming. but never mind. we hanged out just now, though it was just a while, it's great.

and tonight, it's going to be our GLEE performance. HELL YEAH! cheer for us. hahaha.....well, though it's not really great, it is a new experience for us. hope that we can do our best tonight.

i think i am getting blurer day by day. especially when i sleep too much. too much sleep will spoil the head, is it??

well, that's all for this entry. ASA

OZIBALA3

the one week holiday feels like nothing.....time passed so fast that i feel nothing. btw, i am not celebrating deepavali...and i just filled my holiday with SLEEP...REST...DRAMA...

yeah!!!nice, right...haha.

and i saw a shocking news last night. the train in my hometown exploded in KK. i have not tried the new train...maybe i have no luck...

the train exploded due to the irresponsibility of people. a lorry driver who parked the lorry with fuel tanks in the middle of the railway. so, whose fault is this?

i think we know ourselves. 

hmm....and tomorrow, i have to participate in a musical. which i am not really happy with.i wish it would end soon. and exam is coming soon. i just dont have the mood to study....well, wait until the fire burns my hand..then, i might start studying.

Superfluous 2

i dont know why i am writing this...

tomorrow need to wake up early yet i am loitering here

maybe because starting from tomorrow...

i have one week holiday...yoohoo

though i am not indian, i celebrate deepavali in my own way~

i am waiting for something...

i dont really know what thing...

just something that can sparkle in my dull life....

well...happy holiday everyone:)

Insincerity

i wonder something~

is it true that guys like to double date??

it is not really my matter, but i feel angry for those girls who are being lied by their so called BOYFRIENDS.

well, i have an example,

there is this guy, who is blatantly having a girlfriend outside the college,

but dating with another girl in this college.

what does that mean?  i think this is unfair and degrading the values of woman.

who is the one who does the wrong thing?

the guy? or the "intruder" of the relationship?

the guy might be wrong, for being tempted to cheat on his girlfriend.

but, the "intruder", either she is "SOT2" or she's deprived of love.

well, both answers make me sympathize her...

why did i say that she is "SOT2"???

well, a girl who knows that the guy has another girl, a relationship and still wants to be with him~what do we call that....erm.....you know, i know...

and deprived of love, yes, most probably, when we are living in this small community with the ratio of 1:5

male and female.

but, i dont understand how can a girl just throw away her dignity or pride whatsoever just like this...

i guess a woman chauvinist like me will never understand~

another ludicrous matter~

someone did something really stupid...

well.....siapa makan cili, dialah rasa pedas, not like the pedas in MAGGI (yummy), but the spiciness that burns out from inside to outside, from heart to lungs and to every parts of the body.....huahuahua....

i think i am getting crazy...

you know what~that  someone knows what she did and got nervous over some trivial matter, and thus, busied herself thinking and justifying herself.....haha, FUNNY~

well, think before you act~now, your "ekor" is exposed....you are trying to hide it, but the swollen part is getting bigger.....and the truth is nearer to us~

AHA! i know what is the title for this entry...

INSINCERITY!

both stories share the same thing...being insincere will only give you bad things... KARMA...i believe in it~as i am a BUDDHIST....

AMITABHA~

I HOPE THAT THEY CAN TURN OVER A NEW LEAF, FIND A NEW DIRECTION IN LIFE! DON'T LIVE LIKE THIS, IT'S PATHETIC ~

Superfluous

sometimes, i just need to be ALONE.

not because of anything, anyone, any matter.

just sometimes, i need a space of my own.

without other people disturbing, without other voices in my head.

i dont know why~

my heart just feels like doing so.

ignoring everyone, pretending to not hear anything, acting as if i dont care about anything.

even if i'm being asked something,

act as if i dont know the answer, even if i knew,

and i dont feel like explaining anything,

even if being misunderstood.

i guess this is the only time i can be myself.

the only time when i can cry as hard, as loud as i want.

the only time i can scream not only in my heart.

the only time i dont need to act like a saint in front of people.

the only time i can pull off my MASK.

i am tired of the happy faces.

why should i be so happy in front of people?

CAMOUFLAGE.

as though as i have no other emotions other than happiness.

hiding my true self. 

the one who likes loneliness.

the one who hide in my "happy faced" silhouette.

the one that is only shown in front of my family.

i felt like a clown.

pretending in front, smiling in front, and dying inside~

when can i be free?

AFTERLIFE! i guess.

i am a bit concern about myself.

am i losing my mind? am i?

i dont know, but cant be, isn't it?

i am still normal. i think.....

d cereal guy...Hell yeah

seriously....i found a page in facebook......namely: Cereal Guy

it's so so so so funny~

i cant help but to laugh....

hahahhahahhahahahhaa

i guess stupidity also suits me well~

well.....we need to relax sometimes.....

tomorrow it's going to be a test for literasi bm...

hope that i dont get doomed~hahahhaa

here, i provide you with the link for 

(drums)

dadaaddadadadadarardrdardsrdarsdardrdardrdadadara BANG!!!

http://www.facebook.com/pages/Cereal-Guy/188892224474463

Ozibala part 2

WHY AM I LIKE THIS???

i also have no idea~

i am on the edge now....

having dilemma

should i, or should not...

i read an article today...

it says that

100 marks woman, no man would dare to go near her, as she is either booked, or  too good, and due to the pride of man, she is left alone.

80 and 60 marks woman, man would like to get them, since they have things that man likes. face, body, and intelligence which is so not intelligent.

those women who are under 60 marks, no man would dare to touch, as they are just not man's type.

For a woman, you can have nothing but not pride.

this is from ME!

even if you have no man, have no money, have nothing at all, and even if you are being dumped by some jerk, you MUST'NT go and beg him to be with you again.

it's a SHAME!!!

and a quote i found in a book:

most people found that they fall in love with one person, but they have no idea, why did that happen~
and so, they started to love that person unconsciously, and started to hate that person unconsciously.

QUOTES

these few days....i love those quotes in facebook~i guess it's a trend now, to share those quotes....actually, everyone knows those quotes, only that it is in the form of a picture with super big words now, we began to pay attention to them.

there are a lot of quotes that had caught  my attention.

especially a few~

firstly,

IT'S HARD TO PRETEND THAT YOU LOVE SOMEONE WHEN YOU'RE NOT, AND IT'S HARDER TO PRETEND THAT YOU DON'T LOVE SOMEONE WHEN YOU DO.

first impression, what a good quote. totally true~

but for me, i am very good at putting my mask on. i think i deserve a prize for that. aha...

secondly,

WORDS MAY LIE, BUT ACTIONS TELL THE TRUTH.

from my friend's experience, i can tell that this is true, indeed, words can be twisted, but actions that bring out human nature? guess what? hmm

these days, i am thinking, did i do anything wrong???i just dont understand, and i cant stop thinking..

another quote:

SOMETIMES, I FEEL THAT WE ARE JUST FRIENDS, SOMETIMES, I FEEL THAT WE ARE MORE THAN FRIENDS, AND SOMETIMES, I FEEL THAT WE ARE LIKE STRANGERS.

guess what, among all the quotes, this one tells everything.

frankly, i am sick of it. sick of everything.

well, it's better to find someone who loves you more than you love him~i think i am going to find that someone soon...as soon as i reach my time limit....when is that??well, not much time left~

suffer

well....what i need to say was said...

what i need to do is done...

it is not in my hands now....

it is out of control....

you dont want to listen,

it's your decision...

i dont care if it is right or wrong..

it is just too much for me to take...

i have nothing to offer now...

i will just do my job and leave everything~

dont ask me to do anything anymore....

i am not someone you just ask for nothing~

i am not a slave...

WHAT THE FUCK????

i said before, compose and listen to him first, but what you people did was plain complaining and taking anger out of something~

and i kept giving advices, i kept saying dont fight and quarrel....

you people said you were not by giving a really annoying looks...frankly, even i feel that it is annoying!

now, it falls back to me...

i took charge of the thing, i have to take the responsibility...

and now, you said:you are the president, you are the biggest here, you make the decision...

so, it has become me now huh???

then before, when i gave advices???i was not the president???

i think i am only someone whom you people think you can direct as long as you like it!

i am already stressful....please la...make less problems for me!!!

SHIT!DAMN!WHAT THE FUCK!HELL-O!WHAT THE HELL!FUCKING CRAP!!!

this is not for you to see, but if you saw this, i am sorry...you picked the wrong blog~

SUCKS

i thought i am strong enough to face all these problems...

but, when all those problems come,

i realised that i am not strong enough...

i also need somebody to ask me 

"are you ok"

i am tired of being in the middle of some people's fucking childish game...

are you guys done??

if you people really want to do it that way, 

FINE....just be prepared to take my responsibility,

i am not going to take it anymore.

what do you expect me to do??

if you guys are not willing to cooperate...

lets not do this...

after all, we wont be doing a good job~

it's just going to be a damn thing for you all to trigger the conflicts~

isn't it??

if you want to talk behind my back, FINE, just say it!

it has no effect on me....

only an advice: not only i wont hear it....

you would get karma too...for talking back about ME!!!

i am not pointing this to anyone??if you feel something, means you have done something~

*i have not mentioned anybody's name here.

p/s: I HAVE NO MONEY!PLEASE DON'T SUE ME!

Thought

if you thought that i would be affected,

i'm sorry, i won't.

if you thought this is the best way,

i'm sorry, it isn't.

if you thought i would care,

i'm sorry, i wouldn't.

i thought i would care,

but, the reality is,

i don't really care,

it's is just another story of a girl met a guy

nothing much to be talked about,

if you thought that i don't know,

i'm sorry, i knew it from the start,

i just kept silent,

for i don't want to get affected.

however,

there's only one thing that i am not sure about,

but i won't ask,

there're only two possibilities,

and both of them....

do not bring any good to me~

so, live well, you J...

ozibala

all of sudden~i feel like writing in chinese~

so, dont mind me~

我不知道我到底要的是什么，

也不知道到底你要的是什么，

不过，你的一举一动已经影响了我，

不知道如何是好，

可是，我又不能做任何事，

世俗的眼光，

对我，就是那么的有影响力，

我无可否认，

为你动了心，

但，

这一切一切，

让我不知所措，

它，

是来得太不合时了吗？

smile??

i dont know exactly what happened.

but it seems that i see that person everywhere i go

besides hostel

hmm

i guess i need to find some other road to walk on

it's like,

i met that person three to four times in a day~

cant really remember

and,

what would you do

giving a SMILE each time?

it just seems funny.

well

i guess i really need to find a "my path" to walk on~

Jar Of Hearts

Jar Of Hearts

By: Christina Perri

I know I can't take one more step towards you  

Cause all that's waiting is regret  

And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore  

You lost the love 

 I loved the most 

 I learned to live, half a life  

And now you want me one more time  

Who do you think you are  

Runnin' round leaving scars  

Collecting your jar of hearts  

And tearing love apart 

You're gonna catch a cold  

From the ice inside your soul  

So don't come back for me 

Who do you think you are 

 I hear you're asking all around  

If I am anywhere to be found 

But I have grown too strong  

To ever fall back in your arms  

I learned to live, half a life 

And now you want me one more time  

Who do you think you are 

 Runnin round leaving scars 

 Collecting your jar of hearts  

And tearing love apart  

You're gonna catch a cold 

From the ice inside your soul  

So don't come back for me  

Who do you think you are

  It took so long just to feel alright  

Remember how to put back the light in my eyes

  I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed  

Cause you broke all your promises  

And now you're back  

You don't get to get me back  

Who do you think you are  

Runnin' round leaving scars 

 Collecting your jar of hearts 

 And tearing love apart 

 You're gonna catch a cold  

From the ice inside your soul  

So don't come back for me 

 Don't come back at all 

And who do you think you are?  

Runnin round leaving scars  

Collecting your jar of hearts  

And tearing love apart  

You're gonna catch a cold  

From the ice inside your soul 

 Don't come back for me  

Don't come back at all  

Who do you think you are?  

Who do you think you are? 

Who do you think you are? 

this song reminded me of someone

this song is dedicated to those who hurt other people's feelings

though it is hurting

though i might still have feeling for you

you can just stay leave forever

dont come back 

dont come back at all

your face would only remind me of the past

which i hope to forget

it's better this way.

who do you think you are?

i really want to ask you this question.

who are you to act so hail and mighty?

you are nothing but a JERK!