Haven't been updating for succchh a long time...well, i was/am busied by trivial thingy...too much stuffs going on here and there...time passed like "zoop"...maybe Potter did his magic..Puff!haha...well....go back to the reality.....DRUMROLLS.....yay...final year~did I say this before?Nah...watever..
This year has been a lot of thinking for me...a lot of questioning...a lot of Yes/No decisions...i was always stuck in the grey zone, not knowing what was the best for myself...well..i will be facing those confusing questions in the vague future...too much...too much...
I have been thinking...what should I do? Pursuing a realm of unreachable? or stop pursuing and stay low....stay on where everyone around is hoping me to stay...where life is nothing but a secured job. (p/s: I called it a job as i havent found my vocation yet). As of now, i haven't received the calling...well...not exactly the calling by God...by the way, my God is Buddha... whatever you call it, i have yet to find the voice inside myself that tells me to chase after something. As of now, I am just stepping my foot into everything to find my path...
Where is my path? sometimes, it gets brighter, sometimes, i thought i was not going to make it through...Not much time left for me to do my thinking, apparently, since it's the final year..I have to decide as soon as possible..My choice..It is the fee for growing up...
Apart from these confusions.......off topic for a while.....EXAM IS GOING ON NOW! When i am supposed to bury my head in the piles of booksssssss....I am writing an entry...cheers! It is just who I am...hahaha
Not much to say after all, just Good Luck to myself, though Luck does not help much here.
with <3 p="">evon
