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i am wondering....am i right??did i make a good decision??or should i just forget everything and move on?

i should not get myself involved in things like this anymore. it wont work...i should just shut the door and say goodbye...but, my heart wont allow me to do that~it is impossible for me to do that...

re-meet with that person??i am not sure,but, whats done cant be undone....so, i'll just carry on~and see what happens~

simple yet difficult~

what should i do??be brave or not???what if i have mistaken...what if i am wrong??can i start again?i dont know, i am not sure...what should i do for now???is it okay for me to continue doing this??or put an end to it??i should start thinking about this seriously. it is not a simple matter, yet it is actually not difficult~what the heck am i talking about??argh..i also dont know...that's it for now...

Dinner with TESLians

just had a nice dinner with my colleagues~ we had seafood steamboat~haha....it was nice~

i even went up stage to dance-sumazau dance~i think all sabahan are familiar with it~hahhahaha......and i saw a cute guy, dancing Iban's cultural dance~but i did not manage to take picture with him...haish....

hmm....and, we visited our lecturer's house, it was real nice....designed by her husband...her husband does have a great taste~the interior was fascinating and fantastic~whoa...so westernised~i wish to have a home like that too~

really need to get a rich husband~hahahhaa....just kidding~

well, i am getting sleepy now, going to sleep...tada,good night, sleep tight~

wuds happening??

please dont hold grudges towards anyone, even if that person had made any mistake.try to forgive and forget. i had experienced this before, and i regretted for doing that. i know i am not in the position to say anything, i just want to voice out my thought. it is non-personal. we still have 3 years to go, after we graduated, all of this wont be important anymore, so, let us start anew, and take only the good memories from here. and please bear in mind, that person might have helped you in the past somehow, dont remember the bad part only...please dont hate me~

Ma life

these few days, i really ate alot....not very much though...just more than the amount of my food before this~
but, the thing is, i am happy and addicted to food....argh,....gonna get fat soon~

i ate a chicken kaarage baked rice, special beef burger, meat lover pizza and a strawberry tea tonight~i was really full~whoa, i am going to try all the drinks there~hehehhehehe.....to satisfy my own desire....lol

by the way, about the money being stolen, the rumour said it was a "toyol" which means the "little ghost" which helps the master to steal money....i was scared~i hope it was not that thing...i wish it was a human...better~

anyway,i am getting sleepy, i will upload the photos of my food tomorow~tada...bye

TIRED

i am so so so tired~

tired of doing anything now~

tired of my life....

never ending work~

tired of my relationship.

tired of my assignments..

tired of my lectures...

tired of anything and everything....

i cant seem to concentrate these days, i wonder why..maybe it is because i am tired of doing things...tired of enthusiastic anymore~

but, i am working on it, trying to be more "energetic"...pray that i would survive in this condition~cheers

evonslove: on that day

evonslove: on that day: "one day, you will regret. one day, you will see what's in for you. one day, you will know how important was this to me. one day, you will..."

on that day

one day, you will regret.

one day, you will see what's in for you.

one day, you will know how important was this to me.

one day, you will see, i am not the one i used to be.

not someone for you to toy with.

not someone who can forgive easily.

not someone whom you can forget.

someday, you will see, how much i have resented you for what you have done.

for what you have not done.

someday~

when the day comes, please bear in mind, it was not me who started it, but it was me who ended it.

though the ending was not satisfying, it would not be a problem,

because, on that day, i can finally forget you.

OBLIVIATE~

LiFe

it has started again. again and again and again and again....why is this happening to me??i wondered...

it should not be me, i mean, out of many people, why am i the one. dont give me a lame excuse, saying that i am the chosen one, i would not buy that...sorry

everytime i tried so hard, so hard to get through it, yet, it is always there. invisible yet invincible. what should i do to avoid it??

i could not stop myself, maybe the only way out is to meditate? think thoroughly??i dont know the exact way of doing this. but, i would try, and try, until i am sick of it and forever say goodbye.

after all these time, i finally realised that it is easy to say that you wanna do something, but your mouth says it, your heart would never allow you to do it~

well, that's life.

SHITSSSSSSSS

what the fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!

my "thing" fell into the dirty hole!!!!!

shit man....how could this happen to me????????


SHITSHITSHITSHITSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!

SHIT

SHITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

WHO THE HELL WAS THAT MORON WHO STEALS MY MONEY?????STUPID...

if i am a bad person like you, i would have used black magic to catch you...you should be grateful that i am better than you, idiot~

it is not once, twice already...you thought i am a richy here??please dont steal money again, you will get caught eventually~

money being stolen once is unlucky, twice, it is my fault, but dont worry, i wont let you steal my money again. that's it. BYE

Move Like Jagger

i like a song recently~it was shared by my besty in facebook~

Move like Jagger by Maroon 5 and Christina Aguilera~
here's the lyrics~enjoy

[Verse 1]
Just shoot for the stars
If it feels right
Then aim for my heart
If you feel like
And take me away, make it okay
I swear I'll behave

You wanted control
So we waited
I put on a show
Now I make it
You say I'm a kid
My ego is big
I don't give a sh*t
And it goes like this

[Chorus]
Take me by the tongue
And I'll know you
Kiss me till you're drunk
And I'll show you

You want the moves like jagger
I've got the moves like jagger
I've got the mooooooves... like jagger

I don't need try to control you
Look into my eyes and I'll own you

With them the moves like jagger
I've got the moves like jagger
I've got the mooooooves... like jagger

[Verse 2]
Maybe it's hard
When you feel like you're broken and scarred
Nothing feels right
But when you're with me
I make you believe
That I've got the key

So get in the car
We can ride it
Wherever you want
Get inside it
And you want to steer
But I'm shifting gears
I'll take it from here
And it goes like this


[Chorus]
Take me by the tongue
And I'll know you
Kiss me till you're drunk
And I'll show you

You want the moves like jagger
I've got the moves like jagger
I've got the mooooooves... like jagger

I don't need try to control you
Look into my eyes and I'll own you

With them the moves like jagger
I've got the moves like jagger
I've got the mooooooves... like jagger

[Bridge]
You wanna know how to make me smile
Take control, own me just for the night
And if I share my secret
You're gonna have to keep it
Nobody else can see this

So watch and learn
I won't show you twice
Head to toe, ooh baby, roll me right
And if I share my secret
You're gonna have to keep it
Nobody else can see this

And it goes like this

[Chorus]
Take me by the tongue
And I'll know you
Kiss me till you're drunk
And I'll show you

You want the moves like jagger
I've got the moves like jagger
I've got the mooooooves... like jagger

I don't need try to control you
Look into my eyes and I'll own you

With them the moves like jagger
I've got the moves like jagger
I've got the mooooooves... like jagger

finally

that's it. i am done with you~i am fed up~no more~

i am totally an idiot for taking such a long time to do this decision~

it is so not me..

from now on, it is going to be a NO for you~i am not going to be the super idiot waiting for miracle to stop by and say hi to me~i am not a little girl anymore~

and what else, you are interrupting my life...it's been a few years now~and it is going to stop now...

You can-David Archuleta

You Can lyrics
Songwriters: Armato, Antonina; James, Tim;

Take me where I've never been
Help me on my feet again
Show me that good things come
To those who wait

Tell me I'm not on my own
Tell me I won't be alone
Tell me what I'm feeling isn't some mistake
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love, you can

Save me from myself, you can
And it's you and no one else
If I could wish upon tomorrow
Tonight would never end

If you asked me, I would follow
But for now I'll just pretend
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love, you can

Baby, when you look at me
Tell me what do you see?
Are these the eyes of someone
You could love?

'Cause everything that brought me here
Well, not it all seems so clear
Baby, you're the one that I've been dreaming of
If anyone can make me fall in love, you can

Save me from myself, you can
And it's you and no one else
If I could wish upon tomorrow
Tonight would never end

If you asked me I would follow
But for now I'll just pretend
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love

Only you can take me sailing in your deepest eyes
Bring me to my knees and make me cry
And no one's ever done this
Everything was just a lie and I know, yes, I know

This is where it all begins
So tell me it will never end
I can't fool myself
It's you and no one else

If I could wish upon tomorrow
Tonight would never end
If you asked me I would follow
But for now I'll just pretend
If anyone can make me fall in love, you can

Show me that good things come
To those who wait